Last Train to Clarksville
by the Monkees

Take the last train to Clarksville
And I'll meet you at the station,
You can be here by four-thirty,
'Cause I've made your reservation, don't be slow,
Oh, no, no, no,
Oh, no, no, no.
'Cause I'm leaving in the morning
And I must see you again,
We'll have one more night together
'Til the morning brings my train and I must go,
Oh, no, no, no,
Oh, no, no, no,
And I don't know if I'm ever coming home.
Take the last train to Clarksville,
I'll be waiting at the station,
We'll have time for coffee-flavored kisses,
And a bit of conversation, oh,
Oh, no, no, no,
Oh, no, no, no.
Da-da-da-da-da-da, etc...
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Take the last train to Clarksville,
Now I must hang up the phone,
I can't hear you in this noisy railroad station,
All alone, I'm feeling low.
Oh, no, no, no,
Oh, no, no, no,
And I don't know if I'm ever coming home.
Oh...
Take the last train to Clarksville,
And I'll meet you at the station,
You can be here by four-thirty,
'Cause I've made your reservation, don't be slow,
Oh, no, no, no,
Oh, no, no, no,
And I don't know if I'm ever coming home.
Take the last train to Clarksville,
Take the last train to Clarksville,
Take the last train to Clarksville,
Take the last train to Clarksville.

Memorial Day

MEMORIAL DAY


It is the VETERAN,
not the preacher,
who has given us freedom of religion.

It is the VETERAN,
not the reporter,
who has given us freedom of the press.

It is the VETERAN,
not the poet,
who has given us freedom of speech.

It is the VETERAN,
not the campus organizer,
who has given us freedom to assemble.

It is the VETERAN,
not the lawyer,
who has given us the right to a fair trial.

It is the VETERAN,
not the politician,
Who has given us the right to vote.

It is the VETERAN
who salutes the Flag,

It is the VETERAN
who serves under the Flag,


ETERNAL REST GRANT THEM O LORD, AND LET PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM.

God Bless them all!!!
Makes you proud to be an AMERICAN!!!!!

This is exactly what I am feeling at this time in my life. So much going on. So much to learn to trust for.............

Hold lyrics

Tell me that it's gonna be okay
Tell me that You'll help me find my way
Tell me You can see the light of dawn is breaking
Tell me that it's gonna be alright
Tell me that You'll help me fight this fight
Tell me that You won't leave me alone in this

'Cause I need, I need a hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding over slow
'Cause I need, I need Your hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding past
Hold on to me

Tell me I can make it through this day
I don't even have the words to pray
You have been the only One who never left me
Help me find the way through all my fears
Help me see the light through all my tears
Help me see that I am not alone in this

Freckles: By Natasha Bedingfield

Here are lyrics from a song that is hitting the spot in my heart that needs to be comforted.

You're Not ALone
by Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in I was alone, but you found me where I was hiding and now I'll never be the same it was the sweetest voice that called my name saying
You're not alone for I am here, let me wipe away your every fear my love I've never left your side I have seen you through the darkest night And I'm the one whose loved you all your life All of your life
You cry yourself to sleep 'Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend And everyone else long gone You've had to face the music on your own but there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying
You're not alone for I am here let me wipe away your every fear my love I've never left your side I have seen you through the darkest night and I'm the one whose loved you you're whole life all of your life.
Faitful and true forever my love will carry you
You're not alone for I am here let me wipe away your every fear my love I've never left your side I have seen you through the darkest night your darkest night and I'm the one whose loved you all your life all of your life.

So much has gone on.
So much has happened.
So much has been dealt with.
So much to look forward to.

Was it all worth it?
Was my journey worth the heart ache?
Will the pain ever fully leave?

I am finally at a place that I am just tasting my dream.
I am heading that way!

Let my enduring keep going.
Let my heart learn its song.
Let my life be lead before.


I was listening to music the other day and heard this song.......It is what my heart is singing....

No
by Jason Aldean
Lookin' back at the dead ends and the detours
All I could do was long for a straighter line
Yeah, I was lost, I had no way of knowin'
Where the twists and turns were goin'
But sometimes, just gotta let the road wind

Could it have been easier?
Yeah, a little smoother, right, maybe so
But lying here with you
Would I change one thing 'bout that road?
No

I believe things happen for a reason
Even though you might not see it at the time
'Cause now I know, every plan that came unraveled
Every crooked path I traveled in my life
Led me here, to your side

Could it have been easier?
Yeah, a little smoother, right, maybe so
But lying here with you
Would I change one thing 'bout that road?
No

Yeah, I finally found you

Could it have been easier?
Yeah, a little smoother, right, maybe so
But lying here with you
Would I change one thing 'bout that road?

Oh, it could have been easier
Yeah, a little smoother, right, maybe so
But lying here with you
Would I change one thing 'bout that road?
No

I have not journaled in a long time. I have written in my online blog but not my journal. My journal is where the epitome of my whole being is expressed. It is sometimes even hard for me to express myself in that little book. My journal is the cry of my heart. My heart has not called or cried out since May 16, 2010. It feels like a lifetime since then. I am back to some of the same struggles. I have been so busy that I have been neglecting so much in my life. My anxieties, worries, and struggles have been suffocating me. I can’t breathe, sleep, or not be sick. I am miserable. But then I realize, I have not been giving my worries and cares over to the One who can comfort me. Life seems so hard and like there are no solutions or directions. I know there are, in time they will be shared but for now….I need to learn how to have faith. I need to learn to trust.

Faith and trust ~Two very simple words that are huge continents in my life that I cannot seem to explore. I almost wonder if there is something innately wrong with me. Why does faith seem impossible to believe? How come I cannot trust? It is not that I do not want those things, it just seems that I am too stubborn, stupid, and independent. I do not want to do it by myself anymore. I need help. I need to remember God cares about everything, especially little details such as where I should live when I graduate and providing me with a teaching job.

I am thoroughly exhausted with work, life, myself and not trusting. I need a vacation from myself. I need to let God be God and Shasta be Shasta. It is a constant struggle, but I pray I am learning to trust.