Fishin with Daddy!

My dad took me fishing. I love going. But I have never caught anything. This outing was no exceptions. We went to Lynx Lake here in Prescott, AZ. 10 yrs ago when I last fished I didnt catch anything then. We keep going back, but we like the spot. You get to fish and there is a little hiking involved to get to some spots around the lake. All I caught was lakeweed!

Life in Song Lyrics

The lights go out all around me.
One last candle to keep out the night.
And then the darkness surrounds me,
I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died.
And all that's left is to except that it's over, my dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made.
I try to keep warm, but i just grow colder, I feel like I'm slipping away.

CHORUS After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And There'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty form my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before, is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope, this nights been so long
I cling to Your promise, there will be a dawn
CHROUS

She never slows down
She doesn’t know why
But she knows that when she’s all alone
It feels like it’s all coming down

She won’t turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries that first tear
The tears will not stop raining down

Chorus:
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fear’s whispering
If she stands, she’ll fall down

She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She’s running from
Wants to give up and lie down

Chorus: 2X
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

The right question and direction

I do want to serve God, but I just do not know, how, what, or why. Life has so many questions and I never have answers. Maybe I am just asking the wrong questions or the hard ones. I just want some form of clarity or encouragement. Hope is elusive. And is often fleeting. How can you have hope when you don't know what to hope for? There is an eternal hope that is solid, but isn't hope similar to faith?

"Faith is the ability to hold on to the promise until the answer comes." - Steven L. Miller

But what is the answer? What even is the question? Why does it even matter? I hear life is not about the destination but the journey to get there. How can you have a destination without a direction?

The Climb by Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
[ Miley Cyrus Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh


In just the 5years since I graduated highschool I have done a lot. It makes me feel old. But I have life skills that I need. I have learned so much. As much as I hate it at times those are mine. Those are my scars and my jewels! They are mine! They were delivered just for me. One of a kind. Unique. Different. Special. They are my God given blessings. My scars are lessons. Lessons that I need to speak up about and share. But before I can share, I need to come to terms with them. It is a process. It is precious. It is my journey. It is what makes up who I am. It does not define me as a person. It only adds to who I am as a person.

Answers to LIfe's Questions

My mind has been burdened with thoughts of what will happen, what am I going to do, where am I going to do? Why can't I have answers? Why do more questions keep coming? Did the answers suddenly disappear? Why can't I be at peace? Why am I always so anxious?

Below is lyrics of a song. A dear friend loved the artist and her mother often shares lyrics of songs that are helping her with grieving the loss of her daughter and my friend. The song just touched me differently.

SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD

By Amy Grant

So much pain and no good reason why
You’ve cried until the tears run dry
And nothing else can make you understand
The one thing that you held so dear
Is slipping from your hand
And you say

Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why
And all I can say

Somewhere down the road
There’ll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Tho’ we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers at the end of the road

Yesterday I thought I’d seen it all
I thought I’d climbed the highest wall
Now I see the learning never ends
And all I know to do is keep on walking
Walking ’round the bend singing

Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why

And all I can say
Somewhere down the road
There’ll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Tho’ we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers at the end of the road