The right question and direction

I do want to serve God, but I just do not know, how, what, or why. Life has so many questions and I never have answers. Maybe I am just asking the wrong questions or the hard ones. I just want some form of clarity or encouragement. Hope is elusive. And is often fleeting. How can you have hope when you don't know what to hope for? There is an eternal hope that is solid, but isn't hope similar to faith?

"Faith is the ability to hold on to the promise until the answer comes." - Steven L. Miller

But what is the answer? What even is the question? Why does it even matter? I hear life is not about the destination but the journey to get there. How can you have a destination without a direction?

The Climb by Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
[ Miley Cyrus Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh


In just the 5years since I graduated highschool I have done a lot. It makes me feel old. But I have life skills that I need. I have learned so much. As much as I hate it at times those are mine. Those are my scars and my jewels! They are mine! They were delivered just for me. One of a kind. Unique. Different. Special. They are my God given blessings. My scars are lessons. Lessons that I need to speak up about and share. But before I can share, I need to come to terms with them. It is a process. It is precious. It is my journey. It is what makes up who I am. It does not define me as a person. It only adds to who I am as a person.