One

One day I will understand,
One day I will be free,
One day I will have peace.
Until then,
I will take one moment at a time,
I will count each and every blessing,
I will continue to trust God.

No way to express

For so long I have longed to express my inner self, yet words have always failed me. My pen was my only outlet to the world for so long. Even that has failed me. Tears never were an option. Now they seem to be there all the time. I get so overwhelmed and frustrated. I do not know what to do with them or even what they are for. That is a lie, I do most of the time. But they escape my eyes at the oddest times. Life is so ironic. I wished I was able to communicate with more. I wished I could be free and open up. But trust is hard.......I am learning how to, but it is a slow process.

One of these days I will be free of my fears, my tears, my doubts, and my grief! I will be to soar to the heights God has for me. Maybe I already am soaring, but I am not able to share it yet. God has blessed me with words, I just do not know how to use them anymore.

"Solomon's Wish - Learning To Fly
From the album A Wise Man's Tragedy
Hit the light, say goodnight to all my hopes and my fears
Beyond this lonely heart there lies a better world
Right there in the middle of my doubt I heard a voice calling out
Are you gonna trust Me son, Are you gonna trust Me son

Cause you're learning to fly
Like a bird in the sky
You're learning to try
The ways of love

You're learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
You're just beginning to fly on the wings of love
And you're gonna get there

More and more now I see my faith becomes reality
I learn to trust You as I'm reaching for the sky
You give me hope; help me cope with the problems of this day
You're waiting there to greet me, no power can defeat me

Cause I'm learning to fly
Like a bird in the sky
I'm learning to try
The ways of love

I'm learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
I'm just beginning to fly on the wings of love

I'm learning to trust 'cause I know tht I must
Believe in the One who has given His son
And given me hope knowing I've just begun
To rise above and soar upon the wind
I'm learning to try the ways of love

I'm learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
I'm just beginning to fly on the wings of love

I'm learning to fly, learning to fly
I'm learning to fly, learning to fly"

"Jeremy Camp - There Will Be A Day
From the album Speaking Louder Than Before


I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

(Chorus)

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing"

"Phil Stacey - You're Not Shaken
From the album Into The Light

I am sinking in a river that is raging
I am drowning, will I ever rise to breathe again
I want to know why I just want to understand
Will I ever know why

How could this be from Your hand
When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hand
And when it seems the walls of my belief are crashing down

Like they're all made of sand
I won't let go of You now, because I know You're not shaken
I'm trembling in the darkness of my own fear
All the questions with no answers still grip me while

I'm here And I may never know why I may not understand
But I will lift up my eyes And trust this is Your plan
When I am in the valley of the shadow of death
You're not shaken, You're not shaken

You're right here beside me and
You have never left
You're not shaken, You're not shaken
Label: Reunion Records"

"Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
From the album Over And Underneath

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching?
As if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child,
Tell me where will you run?
To where will you run?

Chorus:
Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands, at my side
They swallowed the grave, on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life

Chorus:

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
And I, I love you
And I want you to know
That I, I'll love you

Chorus:"