I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know

And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

Lyric adaptations from Super Chix

Learning to walk again is one of the most painful experiences. When you do not naturally trust, it is a work of God to be able to lean on Him. It is an act of God to be willing to learn how to lay it at the cross. Opening up and being vulnerable does not happen. But when your heart is softening emotions come cascading down. Emotions that have been pent up for years. Feeling emotions is one of the most painful, piercing experiences I have had in a long time. Love is a battlefield is more then a silly song lyric. It is the truth. Love hurts and is painful, whether it is with family, friends, or God. It is not easy and I am slow.
But I am learning how to live.
I am learning how to trust.
I am learning how to feel.
I am learning how to be vulnerable and open.
I am learning that trusting God hurts more then life itself, but is one of the most beautiful forms of pain.