Hey God lyrics
by Lonestar

Hey, God, I don't believe I ever thanked you
For the time my brother got sick
Wasn't sure he'd make it
Then he finally pulled through

And, hey, God, I wanna thank you for my family
They're healthy and they're beautiful
We were gonna stop at two
Now there's number three

You have your ways, you have your plan
Sometimes mysterious and hard to understand
I am humbled by your grace and everything you do
Hey, God, hey, God, I just wanna thank you

Hey God, take good care of my nephew
He was only nineteen
They say he didn't feel a thing
Now he's there with you

And, hey, God, you know what it's like to lose
Someone who you truly love when you gave your son to us
You must have cried then too

You have your ways, you have your plan
Sometimes mysterious and hard to understand
I am humbled by your grace and everything you do
Hey, God, hey, God, I just wanna thank you

Sometimes I forget to stop and bow my head
And remember that I have been blessed

Oh, you have your ways, you have your plan
Sometimes mysterious and hard to understand
I am humbled by your grace and everything you do
Hey, God, hey, God, I just wanna thank you

Thank you

Matt Redman - You Never Let Go
From the album Passion 06: Everything Glorious

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back
I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Chorus:

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Chorus: (2x’s)

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know

And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

Lyric adaptations from Super Chix

Learning to walk again is one of the most painful experiences. When you do not naturally trust, it is a work of God to be able to lean on Him. It is an act of God to be willing to learn how to lay it at the cross. Opening up and being vulnerable does not happen. But when your heart is softening emotions come cascading down. Emotions that have been pent up for years. Feeling emotions is one of the most painful, piercing experiences I have had in a long time. Love is a battlefield is more then a silly song lyric. It is the truth. Love hurts and is painful, whether it is with family, friends, or God. It is not easy and I am slow.
But I am learning how to live.
I am learning how to trust.
I am learning how to feel.
I am learning how to be vulnerable and open.
I am learning that trusting God hurts more then life itself, but is one of the most beautiful forms of pain.

Meditations

Worry is a burden God never intended for us to bear.

In every desert of despair, God has an oasis of comfort.

To know love, open your heart to Jesus,
To show love, open your heart to others.

Love is never afraid of giving too much.

Each small step of faith is a giant step of growth.

When we sustain a heartbreaking loss,
When grief overwhelms our soul,
The Savior who gave Himself on the cross
Reminds us that He's in control.
- D DeHaan

"Lord, the trials we face at times seem to much to bear. We're grateful, though, for the reminders in Your Word that You will stay by our side and helps us endure till You call us home. Amen."

"Then the time came when the risk it took
to remain tight in a bud was more painful
than the risk it took to blossom."
-Anaisnin

I Wish...

I wish I could communicate.
I wish I would deny trusting my Savior.
I wish was happy.
I wish I was healthy.
I wish I was in love.
I wish I was settled.
I wish I was sold out for Jesus.
I wish my sister and I could communicate with each other.
I wish I could be disciplined.
I wish I wouldn't worry.
I wish life would be simpler.
I wish I could see my dreams and hopes come to fruition.
I wish to dream.
Dreams that are for me.
Dream the dreams God has given me.
I would I could dream about peace.
I wish I would stop wishing and turn to God.

One

One day I will understand,
One day I will be free,
One day I will have peace.
Until then,
I will take one moment at a time,
I will count each and every blessing,
I will continue to trust God.

No way to express

For so long I have longed to express my inner self, yet words have always failed me. My pen was my only outlet to the world for so long. Even that has failed me. Tears never were an option. Now they seem to be there all the time. I get so overwhelmed and frustrated. I do not know what to do with them or even what they are for. That is a lie, I do most of the time. But they escape my eyes at the oddest times. Life is so ironic. I wished I was able to communicate with more. I wished I could be free and open up. But trust is hard.......I am learning how to, but it is a slow process.

One of these days I will be free of my fears, my tears, my doubts, and my grief! I will be to soar to the heights God has for me. Maybe I already am soaring, but I am not able to share it yet. God has blessed me with words, I just do not know how to use them anymore.

"Solomon's Wish - Learning To Fly
From the album A Wise Man's Tragedy
Hit the light, say goodnight to all my hopes and my fears
Beyond this lonely heart there lies a better world
Right there in the middle of my doubt I heard a voice calling out
Are you gonna trust Me son, Are you gonna trust Me son

Cause you're learning to fly
Like a bird in the sky
You're learning to try
The ways of love

You're learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
You're just beginning to fly on the wings of love
And you're gonna get there

More and more now I see my faith becomes reality
I learn to trust You as I'm reaching for the sky
You give me hope; help me cope with the problems of this day
You're waiting there to greet me, no power can defeat me

Cause I'm learning to fly
Like a bird in the sky
I'm learning to try
The ways of love

I'm learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
I'm just beginning to fly on the wings of love

I'm learning to trust 'cause I know tht I must
Believe in the One who has given His son
And given me hope knowing I've just begun
To rise above and soar upon the wind
I'm learning to try the ways of love

I'm learning to fly
Though it's gonna take time
I'm just beginning to fly on the wings of love

I'm learning to fly, learning to fly
I'm learning to fly, learning to fly"

"Jeremy Camp - There Will Be A Day
From the album Speaking Louder Than Before


I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

(Chorus)

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing"

"Phil Stacey - You're Not Shaken
From the album Into The Light

I am sinking in a river that is raging
I am drowning, will I ever rise to breathe again
I want to know why I just want to understand
Will I ever know why

How could this be from Your hand
When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hand
And when it seems the walls of my belief are crashing down

Like they're all made of sand
I won't let go of You now, because I know You're not shaken
I'm trembling in the darkness of my own fear
All the questions with no answers still grip me while

I'm here And I may never know why I may not understand
But I will lift up my eyes And trust this is Your plan
When I am in the valley of the shadow of death
You're not shaken, You're not shaken

You're right here beside me and
You have never left
You're not shaken, You're not shaken
Label: Reunion Records"

"Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
From the album Over And Underneath

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching?
As if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child,
Tell me where will you run?
To where will you run?

Chorus:
Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands, at my side
They swallowed the grave, on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life

Chorus:

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
And I, I love you
And I want you to know
That I, I'll love you

Chorus:"

My best friend sent this song to me. It cracks me up! But it is true, though I am slightly more girly now!

One of the Boys
by Gretchen Wilson

I can do most anything a man can do
I can hold my liqour with the best to you
Even take your money in a game of pool
Yea I'd kick your butt, If I wanted to.

And I dont mind when people cuss infront of me
The truth is I dont blush that much at anything
But I still got this little girl inside of me
That likes to be, treated like a queen.

Chorus:
And I know I dont act much like a lady
But I still need to be somebody's baby
Yea you might find me makin' too much noise,


But I'm more than just one of the boys
Yea I'm more than just one of the boys

God knows I aint never been the clingy type
Lookin' for a man to make it all alright
But I dont mind admitting sometimes late at night
Well I need someone, to hold me tight.

Chorus
And I know I dont act much like a lady
But I still need to be somebody's baby
Yea you might find me makin' too much noise
But I'm more than just one of the boys
Yea I'm more than just one of the boys.

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Fishin with Daddy!

My dad took me fishing. I love going. But I have never caught anything. This outing was no exceptions. We went to Lynx Lake here in Prescott, AZ. 10 yrs ago when I last fished I didnt catch anything then. We keep going back, but we like the spot. You get to fish and there is a little hiking involved to get to some spots around the lake. All I caught was lakeweed!

Life in Song Lyrics

The lights go out all around me.
One last candle to keep out the night.
And then the darkness surrounds me,
I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died.
And all that's left is to except that it's over, my dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made.
I try to keep warm, but i just grow colder, I feel like I'm slipping away.

CHORUS After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again
And There'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty form my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before, is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope, this nights been so long
I cling to Your promise, there will be a dawn
CHROUS

She never slows down
She doesn’t know why
But she knows that when she’s all alone
It feels like it’s all coming down

She won’t turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries that first tear
The tears will not stop raining down

Chorus:
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fear’s whispering
If she stands, she’ll fall down

She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She’s running from
Wants to give up and lie down

Chorus: 2X
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

The right question and direction

I do want to serve God, but I just do not know, how, what, or why. Life has so many questions and I never have answers. Maybe I am just asking the wrong questions or the hard ones. I just want some form of clarity or encouragement. Hope is elusive. And is often fleeting. How can you have hope when you don't know what to hope for? There is an eternal hope that is solid, but isn't hope similar to faith?

"Faith is the ability to hold on to the promise until the answer comes." - Steven L. Miller

But what is the answer? What even is the question? Why does it even matter? I hear life is not about the destination but the journey to get there. How can you have a destination without a direction?

The Climb by Miley Cyrus
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
[ Miley Cyrus Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh


In just the 5years since I graduated highschool I have done a lot. It makes me feel old. But I have life skills that I need. I have learned so much. As much as I hate it at times those are mine. Those are my scars and my jewels! They are mine! They were delivered just for me. One of a kind. Unique. Different. Special. They are my God given blessings. My scars are lessons. Lessons that I need to speak up about and share. But before I can share, I need to come to terms with them. It is a process. It is precious. It is my journey. It is what makes up who I am. It does not define me as a person. It only adds to who I am as a person.

Answers to LIfe's Questions

My mind has been burdened with thoughts of what will happen, what am I going to do, where am I going to do? Why can't I have answers? Why do more questions keep coming? Did the answers suddenly disappear? Why can't I be at peace? Why am I always so anxious?

Below is lyrics of a song. A dear friend loved the artist and her mother often shares lyrics of songs that are helping her with grieving the loss of her daughter and my friend. The song just touched me differently.

SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD

By Amy Grant

So much pain and no good reason why
You’ve cried until the tears run dry
And nothing else can make you understand
The one thing that you held so dear
Is slipping from your hand
And you say

Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why
And all I can say

Somewhere down the road
There’ll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Tho’ we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers at the end of the road

Yesterday I thought I’d seen it all
I thought I’d climbed the highest wall
Now I see the learning never ends
And all I know to do is keep on walking
Walking ’round the bend singing

Why, why, why
Does it go this way
Why, why, why

And all I can say
Somewhere down the road
There’ll be answers to the questions
Somewhere down the road
Tho’ we cannot see it now
And somewhere down the road
You will find mighty arms reaching for you
And they will hold the answers at the end of the road

Sometimes I wished I had all the answers, but if I did, then I would never grow as a person.

Sunny Cloudy Days

Life isn't simple in any way. It sometimes isn't even sunny. But it would be nice for it to shine bright. The little rays peaking through clouds give encouragement. But a giant sunny day with no clouds in sigh gives hope. It lets you know that you are headed in the right direction. It settles a trembling spirit. It gives peace to the weary. Clouds and sunshine are inevitable. Life keeps going no matter what. It is how you handle the changes that tells the world who you are. Just keep trudging along those cloudy days, the sun will shine one day when you least expect it. Don't give up hope. Keep splashing!

Cowboy Rules!!!

Cowboy rules for:
Arizona, Texas , Colorado , Oklahoma , New Mexico , Wyoming , Montana , Utah , Idaho , and the rest of the Wild West are as follows:
1. Pull your pants up. You look like an idiot.
2. Turn your cap right, your head ain't crooked.
3. Let's get this straight: it's called a 'gravel road.' I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're gonna get dust on your Lexis. Drive it or get out of the way.
4. They are cattle. That's why they smell like cattle. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-10 & I-40 go east and west, I-17 & I-15 goes north and south. Pick one and go.
5. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 Combines that are driven only 3 weeks a year.
6. Every person in the Wild West waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept.
7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of geese/pheasants/ducks/doves are comin' in during the hunts, we WILL shoot it outa your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time.
8. Yeah. We eat trout, salmon, deer and elk. You really want sushi and caviar? It's available at the corner bait shop.
9. The 'Opener' refers to the first day of deer season. It's a religious holiday held the closest Saturday to the first of November.
10. We open doors for women. That's applied to all women, regardless of age.
11. No, there's no 'vegetarian special' on the menu. Order steak, or you can order the Chef's Salad and pick off the 2 pounds of ham and turkey.
12. When we fill out a table, there are three main dishes: meats, vegetables, and breads. We use three spices: garlic salt, black pepper, and BBQ sauce! Oh, yeah . . We don't care what you folks in Cincinnati call that stuff you eat IT AIN'T REAL CHILI!!
13. You bring 'Coke' into my house, it better be brown, wet and served over ice. You bring 'Mary Jane' into my house, she better be cute, know how to shoot, drive a truck, and have long hair.
14. College and High School Football is as important here as the Giants, the Yankees, the Mets, the Lakers and the Knicks, and a dang site more fun to watch.
15. Yeah, we have golf courses. But don't hit the water hazards - it spooks the fish.
16. Turn down that blasted car stereo! That thumpity-thump crap ain't music, anyway. We don't want to hear it anymore than we want to see your boxers! Refer back to #1!

Confidence

Confidence?
Where did it go?
Is it hiding?
Why did you run away?
What happened?
Why do I feel like a helpless, lost, little girl?
Confidence, why did you leave?
We were working so well,
you were growing,
I was growing.
It makes me wonder if you were ever really there.
You shouldn't have left as swift as you did.
Not only did you abandon me,
you keep me from getting real sleep at night.

Sleep.
I know you are there,
just lurking around the corner.
A nasty tease you are to me,
but the sweetest gift of all.
A sweet gift that has become sour.
Maybe we became to close,
Sleep, you used to make the world disappear and problems dissolve;
now, you rub me of my rich night precious slumber due me.
You try to run my life, but you wont!

Control is ever present, yet never speaks up.
Control's actions destroy lives and dreams.
What is going on in my mind that I can't sleep?
Why do I feel as if I will always fall down and scrap my knees?
Will I ever learn to walk?
Will I ever learn to run?
Should I be happy if I am even able to crawl?

I want my Confidence back!
Please don't leave me!

I have confidence.
If I didn't, I couldn't do half of what I do.
I get up and speak in front of people.
I wake up every morning and get ready to greet the day.
I care deeply for my friends.
I would give my life for my family if it meant that they could live a full life.

Maybe confidence is a choice, like love.
But this shaky, unsure, little girl feeling is still there.
The unknown, unsure, terrifies me, make me sick,
makes me think I have nothing to offer...
I know I have a something to offer...
It is just starting to emerge,
I am just starting to become me.
I am me!
I am me!
No amount of confidence running away can change that,
I am me!
I may not know how to roar, but by golly!
I am learning how to growl!
Life is a process that takes time,
please be patient with me as I learn to be patient with myself!

Roomie Fun

My roomie and I have tons of fun! We enjoy spending time with each other and playing with the camera.

My voice fails me

I can’t express myself with my voice, but God gave me a mind.

I can’t say what I am thinking, but I can write.

My pen and journal sometimes are my crutch, but at least I know I can utter the cry of my heart.

It sings so many songs, so many songs.

Sometimes I can’t even keep my pen going long enough to get my song out.

It has a value. Just like I have value.

Everyone has a song. It should be sung. People shouldn’t put their interperation into it.

God gave everyone a song.

One that should be shared.

One that expresses them as an individual uniquely created with a purpose.

Is it possible that my song got buried?

Did I lose it?

Will it come back?

Will it be different?

I want my song to come back.

I want my heart to sing again.

Only God can teach me to sing again.

Only God give me back that desire.

Please help me to sing again.

I want to sing again, I just don’t know how anymore.

Has it changed?

Will it be better?

What if I can never sing again?

What if I lost that ability?

Don’t leave me!

Don’t forget me!

I wanna sing my heart song!